Let's Be Better!

So here it is New Year's Eve Eve...and I feel compelled to write my last blog of 2011.  Even as I type I am wondering where am I going with this...and I am kind of thinking the same for the next year...where am I going with this? 
Well let's take on the easy one first...what to blog blog blog about....the year in review  perhaps?  Yeah-  like all years, 2011 had its ups and it had its downs but all in all it was a very good year ( I hope everyone sang that last part).  Boy- did it go fast though.   If this is how fast all the years are going to go by....I better concentrate on more than blogging!
This year was a year of some firsts....my sweet grandson's first birthday and he is even more so the shining light of my life.
 With that same feeling in mind, I was so thrilled to see my sister enjoy the feeling of being a grandma as her daughter had a daughter.  Even though no one warned me...I was happy to share with her the concept of the "new layer of worry" that comes with the totally overwhelming joy you feel as a grandparent!  I feel it is my duty to warn grandmas-to-be (especially Italian ones) to expect a punch in the stomach.
 I realized it myself when my daughter was in the labor room and I was in there for some support ( I wasn't there for the delivery ...I couldn't take that moment away from her and her husband...plus... a    c-section..um... no thanks) While I was in her room, I was watching the beeps of the machines that I knew nothing about  (but it also seemed the nurses were fumbling over the new computerized system too).......those beeps don't seem right to me...which one is the baby ...which one is hers...it was then I realized  as I prayed ...that if anything happened...I mean ..that is MY baby having a baby...POOF- along with the birth of my grandson was the birth of the  new layer of worry !!!   Maybe you have to be Italian to get this paranoid way of thinking---my sister - she gets- I mean, she's my sister !

As life goes -there were some losses.  A very dear friend, gone way too young... I miss him every day and will try to keep his memory alive with my theater kids...(by the way...2012 will be an AMAZING TECHNICOLOR year....yay! MJ directs a show  blog part 2 coming this summer to a computer near you .....) But as I look back- yeah there was injury and illness...the good won..thank goodness!

Some Goodness of the year included
-playing Yatzee with my kids at our cottage ...all three ...in the same place for a whole night and the stand up surfing the next day and lauging until it hurt! 
-securing a home for my summer show kids
-having those same kids come through for me and our town at a toy drive for the community center that houses us!
-my daughter graduating from college /low point - my idea of buying her an  idiot dog as a gift...although Louie made a great Toto.
-of course my train trip with my sweet boy...that will be the highlight of many many years!
-walking around NYC with some of my favorite people in the world on a beautiful fall day
-the whole Christmas season....teaching a little boy Jingle Bells etc....decorating the (dont touch the tree) ...watching him open gifts...getting the ho ho whole idea of Santa but also singing Happy Birthday to Jesus (I wish there was a font to relate how he says Jesus because it is awesome!!)

And that brings us to New Years Eve Eve...and where am I going with this?
 Resolutions? Nah..I break those before my head hits the pillow on New Years Day...No diets,  no exercise routines...no trying not to swear so much ...WTF- I'll save that last one for Lent!    So what's a girl (hah) to do to be a better person in 2012?  No weight loss/diet regimen is going to do it...that's external...although there is a pair of jeans I would like to fit into again.....but let's concentrate on the inside. The person inside the those really, really, REALLY  tight jeans- What can I do to be better... we all can be better in some way or another right? So let's do it....

Lets ALL be better!!!  ...let's be considerate, let's take time for each other - let's not wait for someone else to call....  you call to make plans with friends...let's not be so money oriented...I learned this holiday that no amount of gifts or money spent can replace the look on Coop's face when he found M&M's in his stocking that Santa promised to bring him!
 Let's be better! Let's make each other laugh...let's smile more and stop complaining so much...let's appreciate what we have and who we are.  Let's be better- we can do it
...and let's not let the little things get to us...like those slow ass drivers who only speed up to make the light that you get caught at...or the people who call and call and call to remind you that your credit card payment is due in 2 weeks ....or incompetency on soooo many levels ..from doctors that don't call back when they say they will to the Tim Horton's people that don't get that black coffee means no cream and no sugar... or those FU**ING Kardashians...enough already with those no talents morons...hey so what.. I got a big ass too...just sayin...Happy New Year!!!!